you can't do that with a tiffany lamp!

I feel... quite awful. sore throat, headache, and I think I have a minor fever. travel really takes a lot out of me, health-wise. last night was rather dramatic despite my best efforts, I really have to get in touch with the hotel, and locked-up-hiding-in-my-room(-that-is-actually-my-mother's-office) is working very well so far.

I should toss down some small bits of writing. and/or finish the vid.


all I want for Christmas is to take Pidge back to school with me.

So I...

my shoulders hurt. so cramped. from hauling luggage and hauling ass. and my father's insane and I should have requested a briefing on the new Family Dynamics Code before trying to defuse him, but... I didn't. currently on my mother's computer, because my father won't let my laptop on the network and I'm not sure when he'll finally be willing to. I may be heading to the library and feeding off their wi-fi every so often, however inconvenient that may be.

so no, mum's not the crazy one this time. at least, not with me... but I haven't let myself talk seriously with her so it's easier. and now that I've got that venting out of the way--

Pidge and I spent the afternoon watching Return of the Joker (thank you so much obi_wansgirl), and I realized/considered a lot of things that are probably going to get me back into writing "Pygmalion" so that's very good. In fact it's looking like, without consistent internets, I'm going to have a nice amount of writing time so yay. and also vidding (I'm hoping to get that done soon like tonight or tomorrow). and iconning, which I shall be doing busily and constantly and multitaskishly. though people with non-holiday requests will probably not get their icons before the 25.

cookies, by the way, will not be going out before christmas and I didn't realize until now that I might want to tell people this. it's not in the way my mind works for me to pin christmas gifts or christmas anything down to a deadline.

my flist is at skip=something awful, so ehm. I'll be playing catchup for a while.

and I hurt.
this family thing is not easy.

if anyone wants to get in touch with me, phone or text message please. it's in my userinfo.

much love,
Mel

film noirs?
films noir?
films noirseses..es...eses?

I should know this.
I probably do.

MEL, you are a LOSER with NO LEARNING CURVE *headdesk*

this is a promise I'm making to myself that I will put together a vid just for the Little Dude (a.k.a. wee!Bruce from Batman Begins). hopefully, being assured of this, I will now be able to go back and not keep smooshing inordinate amounts of Little Dude footage into the Bjorkvid, excepting where they are necessary and/or fitting. because there is a certain point at which it just begins to look silly.

right then.

Yes, December 16, 230 years since our beloved Jane's birth.


So look, I'm going so use this as an excuse to (finally, after months of collection!) share with you:
( A Great Big Dirty Online Resource List! )

shrieking_ell. you must check this out.
(other people too, you know. it's pretty crazy.)

OMGWTFBBQPOLARBEAR?

please tell me this is real and I'm not just hallucinating from lack of sleep.

Dear Mel--

if you work hard on your finals, and put together good papers, and are a studious little dinkie-frosh, you may geek out this weekend.

Love,
Self


speaking of, Schedule (as of 5:23 pm) (this is more for my recollection and accountablity than because you care about it, but hey, it's my journal)
-quiet time until 6
-quickanddirty outline + some brainstorming for the paper (about 15 minutes)
-vid until 7
-go to dinner
-type up recent fic longhand
-collect reading, write better outline
-write intro, first few pages if have time/brainpower
-SLEEP (this is important. do not blow it off, no matter what)

Ecuador's 2004 World Bank poverty assessment is my bitch.
.::collapses::.

more vidding -- preferably through 00:04:00, and tightening up what I've done already -- and at least an outline (if not a rough) of queer history final, tomorrow.
which, I should probably read through that prompt a few times before bed.


shrieking_ell, I'm sorry. I really need this sleep.




(p.s. there's half a holiday fluff kittenfic in my Trusty Notebook. don't know when the other half will happen, but I doubt I'll be expecting it. knowing her)

getting a christmas card from someone who's since defriended you

has a friends-only journal

has a friends-only reply policy.



thanks anyway, kittenbraden





(p.s. yes I am still waiting for my dinner o___o)

I WAS ONLY ASLEEP FOR AN HOUR.

HOW COULD I STILL SLEEP THROUGH MY ALARM??!?!?!?!?!?



terrified,
Mel