you can't do that with a tiffany lamp!

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answer: I have both no idea and every idea. I know that home is anywhere I want it to be, and that the "where" is infinitely less important than the "with whom". I know that I have at least three homes, if not more. I know and celebrate the validity of family by choice. I know, in a nutshell, that "home is not a place". but right now, at this very moment in my life, I am also in the midst of struggling with the very idea of home, searching actively for where I want to be and where (and with whom) I belong. it is my crisis du jour, and it is tempting to fall back into old norms, precedents that are comfortably stagnant at best and, at worst, actively damaging. I am fighting with myself to stay here, and for today it is a fight I want to win. tomorrow I will consider it again but today this is my direction. I am myself, I am here, and most importantly -- I am.

in other news:
I APPROVE OF THIS. VERY GREATLY.

&

COVERED IN BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!

me: still settled in Orlando, still really bad at checking friendslist, still needing a haircut and a job. bah. but life is otherwise still hovering between 'good' and 'acceptable', particularly if the paycheck I still have coming from Hatch leaves enough in my checking account post-phone-bill for me to buy a ticket for Warped. I can't remember how many hours I'm supposed to have on it, so. *fingers crossed*

you: particularly my friends and dear ones in the Midwest, how are you? I've skimmed my friendslist enough to know (thank God) that everyone's in one, each, of their respective pieces -- but I still worry. (I know for example that my parents' basement has ... well, "flooded" would be a conservative description, and their neighbor's house is a complete disaster replete with at least one collapsed wall. so. as I already said, yes. I worry.) be safe!

& love to all.

ugh, I leave for Orlando in roughly ... 12 hours? and have WAY NOT ENOUGH PACKING DONE. D: but I have a whole pot of terrible coffee and a playlist with my two favorite albums in the UNIVERSE right now (Howl! Pretty Hate Machine! ) and ... I can totally do this.

totally.

fuck, I hate packing so much.

/whinypost

so I'm browsing my desktop on the family computer (I haven't been on this baby for about a year) and I find a folder that I've titled "gayrard".

( here's what was in it )


and I think my favorite part about it is these are actually not even close to Geeway's campest moments. my less favorite part is that I could totally be less lazy and look for pictures of, you know, said campest moments and maybe make a loving post about dudes who hang heternormativity out to dry and their bands and my super-huge love but ... I don't want to right now. some day.

whatever. I have to pack for Madison. WOO!

(oh hey, if you have pictures of Gerard Way being ridiculous and want to share? you can put them in comments. I won't mind. I might even respond with extreme enthusiasm. WHO KNOWS?)

home from school, will be in Milwaukee until the 6 June when I fly down to Orlando for the rest of the summer. 2.5 days straight driving was not good for my immune system (or my voice), but was great for my soul. less great for my soul (though potentially Very Good) is only working 4-9 evenings and being the only one up & active in the house until then -- I don't think I really realized how much time I slaughtered chatting on the phone with laura until now. and now I have all this free time and I've got to find things to do with it! so far I have come up with: laundry, housecleaning (particularly the doing of dishes), and book-reading. I hope to get my hair cut tomorrow, after going out for a run and then dropping my sister off at work. /natter

speaking of phone, and stuff, I think I'm finally starting to get solidly over the financial (and spiritual) hump of the EPIC PHONEBILL DOUCHERY. which is nice! because ugh, I am so done with having that hanging over my head.

also of the good, my laptop is working! I've been reluctant to declare this until now, but after a quick trip to IT it survived finals ( = laptop on and running pretty much ALL THE TIME) and the car trip home, so. :D

and ykw? Orlando is going to rock hard. I'm excited!


so, let's see, I have this saturday and next weekend booked (eeeee!), but if you're in WI and think we should hang out pls comment. and if you're not in WI, THAT'S OKAY! I STILL LOVE YOU! *squishes*

... aaand, I'm gonna go die now. of boogers.

ALEX DELEON HOW IS YOUR VOICE EVEN REAL?

in fact, ALL OF THE CAB, HOW?



♥_♥

messrs meletor_et_al and teenytiny_laura would like to inform you that, despite never having met in real life, they have enough crazy fangirl love for each other that they felt bound to show their love to the world in the form of matching

I'm coming down with a cold, have 3 pages to write by noon tomorrow, and should be sleeping.

screw all that, who wants to see Alton Brown acting like a complete goofball? ME, ME I DO!


go to 7 minutes, 40 seconds.

*heartface*


also, as my entry title suggests, I went to the OCEAN today! with wolby and Sam! it was AWESOME! we are such silly girls. ♥

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

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also, in the "made mel giggle like a crazy person camp" we have: Virgle: Virgin and Google on MARS! and this guy's forum response and the thread to follow. *sparkly hearts*

also, I love my Milwaukee family, my Orlando family and my Howell House. along with all of you. because you know what? home is people :)